Reclaiming My Body
& Healing Our Relationship
My journey with body narratives began, like many, around grade school age, where I faced bullying and judgment from peers and strangers alike. Being called names and profanities based off of my appearance left deep scars. I feel into a sense of not fitting in with my own skin; I was not in my body, and I desperately wanted it to be accepted – because it would hopefully mean I as a whole would be, too.
Listlessly going from one focus to another as I got older, the disconnect grew more. I avoided the mirror except to check my uniform, to make sure I was socially acceptable. I continued to want to shrink, not draw attention to myself for fear of formative scars being reopened. Many times life had given me evidence to believe this fear was valid. However, pivotal moments came with my career as a massage therapist and doula, where I witnessed the incredible power and resilience of the human body. It is a magnificent vessel of existence, beautifully faceted with human imperfection. From the outside in, we are divine.
Navigating challenges and setbacks, I made a conscious decision to prioritize my own well-being after becoming a parent. I realized that my body deserved the same respect and attention I was giving my mind and spirit. Surrounding myself with like-minded individuals and practicing mindfulness became crucial in shifting my body narrative, there embracing the power of living in my incredible body. By quieting my inner critic and choosing self-compassion, I began to reclaim ownership of my body and life.
This journey has profoundly impacted my sense of well-being and fulfillment. Feeling more connected to my body has unlocked a newfound confidence and authenticity within me. I no longer shrink myself to fit into society’s narrow standards, I proudly take up the space I am meant to occupy.
